Patient's sorrow

Mrs Sandler (not her real name of course) is from the country and just moved to the Sydney to live with her sister since the husband passed away recently. She sold the house and right now trying to look for one unit apartment or granny flat to live. Mrs Sandler is in her 70s and came in for a podiatry visit yesterday.
She looks healthy except for a stroke which causes the right -sided weakness to her body.
Since she haven't been to see a podiatrist for ages, I began to start trimming her toenails first. The next thing is she broke down and said:" I miss Russell so much.......he was my soul mate."
Being in a profession, I always think one should be more empathic rather than sympathetic towards the patients. In the end, I got her distracted in the conversations which at least, made it easier for my treatment.

She must have loved him so much........ As for me, I am still waiting patiently for someone whom I can grow old and live happily ever after.

One of those randoms...

Judging from the August earnings, I doubt I can go to the Annual's Podiatry conference in New Zeland. I'm planning to take up another job to work on Saturday at a local clinic. My life is pretty much stagnant in Sydney. No party, staying at home to watch CSI/Law&Order, online and washing/ironing clothes with occasional 1 or 2 bottles of beer.

Not sure for how long I can sustain such lifestyle.

However, wait till I've settled for the new housing, I plan to take up salsa dance. VN's coming to Sydney on this Friday which I'll be looking forward to meet her.

I think my room mate , Di, is very lucky to have a boyfriend like Pete. He actually bought her a laptop for her school use in regardless that Di stated she will pay back the money to him. Pete often drop by at my place and the couple would go to gym on every Tuesday evening and followed by cooking dinner together afterwards. *so lovely dovey*Think I am married to the TV faithfully every night for his accompany. It's been quite a long time that I have fallen in love. Maybe I don't even know how to love someone anymore. I don't feel panicking about not getting tied up or rather more afraid of meeting thrashy guys. On the lighter note, i'll be missing Di as she will be moving out to another place this weekend as well.

Moving *again*

Back in Sydney and now tying to get back into usual routine. My *itch landlord was 'kind' enough to give me only 7 days' notice to evacuate the house. I spotted a self-contained granny flat just 5 mins down the road and hopefully no one has taken that house yet.

Work is as usual except suffering from a bit of jetlag (no doubt I am only 2 hours ahead of Singapore's time). I was so wide awake at 12mn, feeling that it's still too early to sleep. I am planning to work one day a week at a local hospital which is like about 20mins drive from where I lived. At least, that would give me more opportunity to meet more new people.

Hasn't been talking to Dad much ever since I got home. He and his menopausal mood. That is something really hard for me to accept for what he is now. He gets into a foul mood out of the blue and the next time he is trying to talk to you in a cool and calm manner. There are certain things which I can't stand him asking me to do. He is a good hearted person but if only he can stop asking me to diagnose his friends' feet condition. He brought me to this Aunty's place and asked if I can do anything to her arthritic knee.Obviously, my dad doesn't know what I'm doing in profession. The last time he asked if I could help this uncle with his foot drop problem which eventually lead a major upsetting incident between us. For a moment, I can't believe we are quarrelling over a stranger.That's the thing in traditional Asians. They can't lose 'face'. They need to show off what they are good at...or rather presenting themselves in the best manner.
Maybe I will apologise to him in regardless whether I've done anything wrong or not. Just to make him happy at least.

Last blog in Singapore (*edited)

Received an email from my Aussie roomate. We had to evacuate the house in within 10 days time. No point panicking until I get back to Sydney then.Grrr* Moving house sux big time.
I'm still losing my voice. Seen a Dr yesterday and had a injection on my butt. *quite painful ok!?*
Finally get a chance to catch up with my best girlfriends for a quick drink at night. It has been ages that we girls managed to get together and have a good chat. Wen is getting married next year so I may be planning to come back to SG in June then.

Gotta meet Shan & Ed for lunch now. They are so sweet to give me a farewell treat. Tonight will still go to Balaclava because some friends are coming down for the sake of me leaving tomorrow. Definitely gonna be a big crowd tonight (nope, I didn't go in the end - too sick still).I do feel very glad to have many friends who care about me. In fact, they actually cancelled the whole drinking session since I'm sick.What's more can I ask for.

Nothing feels like home especially you are sick.I can only say that Mom took really good care of me for the past few days. That's why I never like to get sick when I'm overseas.

Hope Cousin Eve will get well soon. Thanks to her mates who passed the Dkny watch to me ;p Now I'm a happy Jan.

Managed to catch hold of a long lost friend working at Stila cosmetic counter around Shawn house.Had a quick catch up and exchanged emails. It's such a long time that since we last talked.

I can't sleep now..I usually get quite excited about sitting on plane. It's a good feeling to be on flight.....sounds crazy?

More sick.......

Think I really have to drag myself to the airport on Saturday morning... ... My throat hurts, blocked nose, headache, dizziness and the skin on my face starts to peel excessively due to the drugs I'm taking. Mom wanted me to meet her at Raffles Place for lunch but I'm just too sick to go out. Morever, I gotta meet Cousin Eve in evening to get the watch later at Bugis. Had to reject Ric and J on the movie tonight. My best girlfriends are organising a coffee session at Siglap later. Think no matter what I still have to go on that one.
Tomorrow will be meeting Shan in the afternoon and planning to stay at home for the rest of evening.
Looking forward for a peaceful Friday evening... ...

Mom has been nagging at me to see a Dr later.Hate to be sick.My head feels as if it's weighing 100 over tonnes..

Acceptance

Mr So-So thinks I am calling him names on my blog. Whatever. I don't usually use real names on my blog. I am running out of my time and resources to sort out things with him. On the other hand, I've been really sick as a puppy. Somehow I just can't take accusations of something which is NOT true (eg, the calling name thingy). As part of learning curve, I have to accept the fact that not all humans think the same and not everyone can take on you for who you are and what you are. Then again, perhaps Mr Soso has his own reasons for being so worked up. I will always remember the good times we shared despite that we most likely will not see each other at any more.

Ok, gotta tell myself stop tearing for *uck sake.

Right now, I just wanna enjoy my last 2 days stay in Singapore.....not sure when I wanna come home for another holi.



On the lighter note, I've had a nice Jap food dinner treat from Ken and his wifey. Gene bought all of us drinks after that. Ken smsed me today saying that he is sure to make me a happy drunk this Friday at Bala. Seriously, I don't think I can make it this Friday- since I'm having cough and sore throat.
Caught the show with Naomi today at Lido cinema. It has been ages that I've seen a movie here in SG. Met up with Emily later and she gave me a Christmas magnet made by one of the disabled kids at the special school. So sweet of her.
Had my hair cut on Tuesday. Spoke a lot with my best friend's auntie and the hairstylist. They kept on encouraging me to come back to SG to work.*sigh*

Just cried

Mr So-so happened to know I got a blog site. In fact, I don't even tell any of best/closest friends about this. I was abit hurt when I received some sms from him which were not meant to be true. All I need is some time to consider whether I should let him know my blogsite or not. This is my personal blog and I do chose carefully on the people to read it. The fellow bloggers which i've linked them on my website are mostly strangers - yes, people whom I've not met except through the blog itself.
I love to write about daily randoms of my day - the only avenue to say anything I want here. I always have the feeling that the blog is my best buddy. Friends in Australia cannot be compared to the friends in Singapore.....They are just different.....That's why when it comes to certain things which I can't relate to anyone in Oz, I'll blog it.

So much hurt after those SMSes, I had to excuse myself a few times from the crowd in order to sob at the toilet. How could people just assume that I am writing bad things about them and yet not reading the blog.

I wanna tell Eugene, Donny and Constance: thanks for being there with all your care and concern at that time. I love you all.

I know I should be ignoring him for at least not respecting my privacy.But, I don't wish to leave Singapore with a heavy heart plus bitterness shit. I'll do whatever I can to clear the air between him and myself....... for as long as I've done my best.

Gotta sleep early since I don't feel well nowadays.....

Ouuuch...my throat hurts!


Mr So-so supposed to msg me about the sentosa trip on Sunday and yet he didn't. As FF said, guys suck sometimes maybe ;(. Anyhow, I still go ahead to Silosa beach with the fellow girlfriends. Played volleyball and frisbee games in a team. Had a good chat with Vone. Heh, finally she is getting her first boyfriend soon. However for Su's case, we sorta condemn that guy coz he claimed that he can only meet Su at the end of the month when the pay day arrives. That guy really sucked! Vone and myself keep on grilling at Su that she shouldn'y give in too much. Plus Su had sent him her pic and not vice versa. How uncool he is.

Getting broke very soon..just spent like 200 bucks on medications.Sian* that almost equivalent to my DKNY watch. Life sucks with face lotsa pimples and down with a sore throat.
Had to cancel the dinner plan with Eugene and Kenneth tonight then. Met up with Annie yesterday and I'll always remember what she said:" Be gracious - no matter what happened.".

Last weekend in Singapore

Had my last day of work at the local hospital. One of the PCA (patient care assistant) is so sweet that she bought me a pack of Sunrise coffee- supposedly to be one of Nestle's best coffee. Annie- another PCA, always to persude me to stay on and work for good. Then again, I don't think I am ready for that kind of lifestyle in Singapore yet.

Met up with Emily and Naomi. Emily used to be a ex-nurse and Naomi was her ex-patient. I got to know Emily through a national day parade event.Naomi was my internet friend. Get to see the circle here? We had a nice dinner together at Millenia Walk and followed by a coffee session at TCC. After all the yakkings, I proceeded to Balaclava to meet a group of my girlfriends. As usual, the band played good music. Since the place was too smokey, the rest of us were just sitting outside the bar. Of course, as time passess, the group started to get a bit 'high'- though not reaching the point of hallucination. A few pals started forcing me to bottoms up on glasses of wine. Don't know why it seemed to be that I am the popular target of the night.
Managed to get JM to send me home. However, I am not going to continue my friendship with him anymore.
He is totally disgusting fella. He should look himself into the mirror. Don't he dare to think that just because I am leaving for Aust next Sat that he can take advanatage of me. What a real *uckhead. Wish I got a chopper with me at that time, then I can 'karate' his hands off me.
I felt sorta traumatised about the whole incident the next following day.
So he messaged me twice and yet I gave no reply. Last night at 2am, he was asking if I am ignoring him. Obviously dumbass. You brought this upon yourself and now you've being 'dumped' for good.

Saturday has proved to be quite a fruitful one for me. Met up with Susan and Yvoone at Orchard. In the later part of evening, met up with Anita.So happy for her that she has found her Mr Right after meeting a bunch of losers on and off. See? I think most dudes DO have a problem about themselves. Around dinner time, went over to Tanjong Pagar to meet up with Callie and David for Salsa night.
I had an absolute fun time there. No doubt Ive just learnt the basic movement for like 5mins. I got a dance invite from a stranger right after that.
Geez, I need to find some dance lessons once I get back to Sydney ;)

Class 95 FM

My favourite radio station in Singapore. I know I'm gonna miss it heaps when I get back to Sydney on 23rd July. Why is it I always such shitty feelings when I know I had to go back Aussie to work? Is it that sort of life which i really want? So contradicting myself as usual....
What is it exactly stopping me to work in Singapore? Perhaps the only reason would be the overseas experience which I needed most. The thought of moving house just makes it more sucky to go back to Syd.

Just happened to know that one of my fellow friend's mom may have Ca Breast. To think that he had just came over here to work for not even a month and yet such a drastic thing can befall onto him.I don't know him for a long time but managed to come out twice for a few beers.
However, there is only so much I can do.....*sigh*
That's my weakest link- can't bear to see ppl getting hurt/depressed.

How come this JM always msg me and yet never ask me out? Not only he msg me bo liao msgs but I am beginning to find him a prick.

"Paparazzi"

Uh oh, someone else discovered my blog. Now have to write discreetly if not the WWW (whole wide world) will know my darkest secrets...hurhur!
Meeting more and more friends lately and now I am beginning to realise that I left with only 2 more weekends to go before I get my butt to Sydney.
Just had a Japanese dinner with Daryn at Mellenia Walk. Finally, after two long years that we manage to catch up again. Glad to hear that he is getting married next year. As usual, he is trying to introduce some ultra geeky or nerdy med dudes to me. LikeI always tell Daryn, if any guy wanna take on me, he has to show 110% of committment which will then eventually convince me to stay with him. No committment guys better steered clear of me coz they would only get on my nerves. Neither nor I will take such craps from them.Powerful uh* Bleah* I guess with my age I just can't complain to take up on the"leftovers". Going to have a med gathering with the fellas on this coming Thurs. KTV and dinner is arranged for this Friday with the net friends. Sat lunchtime to meet Esther.

No more eczema! Thanks to Dr Skinny (who works at X-ray department) who is willing to write the presciption for me. Will be arranging for a dermato dr for tomorrow to sort out my skin problem. That goes my bling bling. No choice, want to look pretty pretty have to make some scarifices somehow in one way or another.


Dr Ah Beng sent me some rather funny SMS today. This is how it goes:

Dr Beng: The cream is called Betamethasone full strength. If u're bored today wanna go jalan jalan?

ME: cannot la, i got dentist appointment today and after that meeting my friend for dinner.

Dr Beng: so late? how many teeth you are plucking out? Means wot? Cannot have laksa ever again?

I must remind myself to tell Dr Beng that his eyes are getting jaundiced....

2nd week in Singapore

Singapore has developed a number of changes over the period of years that I wasn't around here.Everything looks so familar and yet I wasn't sure of the exact shop names of the particular places anymore. 2nd week in Singapore is rather 'happening'.

Monday- Had my best friend's wedding dinner at Rlitz Charlton hotel. Me dressing up in a forest green plunging neckline and seqinine beads at the bottom of the knee length dress. Sexy babe indeed. ;p

Tuesday- Went out with the Sq girl Janet to balaclava for some 1 for 1 drinks. Night was average without any cute guys.

Wednesday- Went out with Janet and Dr Tay (which he always preferred to be called) for a Jap Sushi meals and Nydc desserts. Enjoying the best time of both companies. jan was nice to bring me to DFS for a shopping spree with 20% discount. I am eyeing on a DKNY bag for now.....hurhur!

Thursday- Little Bro Benny can only meet me at 9pm as he needed to distribute the NDP tickets at Raffles place MRT. Thinking that going home after work is such a drag so I went out with this Scottish fellow colleague for a drink at Indochine at Wisma. So funny..he knows I want Hoeegarden and I don't where to have it. Yeap he took me there then where we had 4 bottles of various beers like stella, heneiken and uh...can't remember. In between we shared viet paper rolls and fish n chips. Oh did I mention his blue eyes uh make my heart flutters? hurhur!
poor boy, he was on MC the next day for query appendicitis. The folks at the hospital said it was my fault for bringing him out to drink. bah*

Friday- Best day of the week. Met up with another fellow med, kai for katong laksa!! OMG it's been ages that I eat Harm". Then I also had Otak with a plate of Rojak with 2 cans of Coke Light. Geez I feel that I am such a glutton. Went back home and changed to meet Callie for drinking session at bala.
So so So so happy to meet the rest of my long 'lost' friends like Linda, Rachel. And my new mates, mabel and Lizzy. heh, glad lizzy likes the top i got for her. It's good to see everyone is talking to one another and for a moment, I thought it wasn't a good idea to group all different strangers together. LOL. Then supper was at next to Anson Hotel and finally i get to eat my fav black char kway!!!
Of course, after eating so much,think I am manipulating my tummy too much with food so I gotta wake up twice just to sit at the toilet bowl.

2nd week in Singapore

Singapore has developed a number of changes over the period of years that I wasn't around here.Everything looks so familar and yet I wasn't sure of the exact shop names of the particular places anymore. 2nd week in Singapore is rather 'happening'.

Monday- Had my best friend's wedding dinner at Rlitz Charlton hotel. Me dressing up in a forest green plunging neckline and seqinine beads at the bottom of the knee length dress. Sexy babe indeed. ;p

Tuesday- Went out with the Sq girl Janet to balaclava for some 1 for 1 drinks. Night was average without any cute guys.

Wednesday- Went out with Janet and Dr Tay (which he always preferred to be called) for a Jap Sushi meals and Nydc desserts. Enjoying the best time of both companies. jan was nice to bring me to DFS for a shopping spree with 20% discount. I am eyeing on a DKNY bag for now.....hurhur!

Thursday- Little Bro Benny can only meet me at 9pm as he needed to distribute the NDP tickets at Raffles place MRT. Thinking that going home after work is such a drag so I went out with this Scottish fellow colleague for a drink at Indochine at Wisma. So funny..he knows I want Hoeegarden and I don't where to have it. Yeap he took me there then where we had 4 bottles of various beers like stella, heneiken and uh...can't remember. In between we shared viet paper rolls and fish n chips. Oh did I mention his blue eyes uh make my heart flutters? hurhur!
poor boy, he was on MC the next day for query appendicitis. The folks at the hospital said it was my fault for bringing him out to drink. bah*

Friday- Best day of the week. Met up with another fellow med, kai for katong laksa!! OMG it's been ages that I eat Harm". Then I also had Otak with a ple that's fun to see but frustrating to think about.