Sha Shay Sha Shay

Not trying to say I dress very well. Today at least got 3 humans asked me where I get the blue-knitted cardigan top.

First fashion victim: Boss's wifey (BW)

BW (in her most Singapore San-pak< "San Ba" in Mandarin> slang:
Eh where you get ya top from har? I also got leh. I got 3 somemore. How much you buy?

Me (eyes try not roll up and mind thinking that was a mouthful of questions to ask):
Oh I got that from Hornsby and cost only $10 bucks. Hurhur!

BW: HAR? So cheap uh? Aiyoh, I bought my 1st top for $40 bucks, 2nd and 3rd for $20bucks each.

Me: They are made in China and I don't think it's worth to pay so much. You can buy like several pieces for your friends.Ha!
(now you know we can never be great shopping mates)

Second fashion victim: Old lady patient (OLP)

OLP: Oh I got a sore corn...that's a nice top you wearing.

Me: Thanks. *giggle to myself*

Third fashion victim: Book- keeper (BK) at the clinic

BK:" That's a lovely top. Did you knit them ya self?

Me: " No, I got it for 10 bucks.Heh heh."

My supportive friend


Is my traditional chinese medicine Dr. He always think I am in a good profession and should set up my own clinic after I've got the experiences you need. Isn't it nice to hear someone being so encouraging?
He gave me this acne cream and instructed me:" apply on left cheek first and one week later, compare to the right cheek , then see got improvement or not."
ME:" orr, uncle."

Geez, no patients book in this Thurs.*sian half*
Maybe I should take the opportunity to check out the Bali tickets. KH - one of very very good dude friends needs a escapade from *ah hem* a girl.
Then if the weather is good I wanna go check out the swimming complex.

My typical dinner(Curry hokkien stir-fry noodles)

SO do you think I can be a perfect housewife and yet not desperate? *sniggles*
I cook everyday for myself after work. I don't believe eating too much outside food for one thing it is too expensive to pay here for one meal and usually I can't finish the large portion of the food here.

I got a 6 year-old boy came in for flatfeet. The boy is sure a smartie. Can tell me exactly where the pain on his feet is. Unlike some adults, worst than kids who do not know what their problems are.My radiologist friend stated this:" Clinic is like a prositution- you have to give ya best and still theyhave to bitch about it - especially women who are not really sick in the first place".
So funny... ...

Cheap deals

Went to a hospital for a quick interview today. The good thing being a podiatrist is "you are wanted everywhere." So I forsee I'll start the job next month. hurhur!!

Since the shopping mall is just around the corner of the hospital, I've managed to get a cheapie deal on a white long sleeved blouse. Since there is a bit of (probably make up stain) near the collar, I asked for a new piece.
As usual, most (or 99%) of the sales assistants will say this quote:" sorry, that's all the sizes we have. Very popular the top." Errr, ok lor. I requested to have it checked out at other stores. She politely replied:" if you like it so much, I give you another 10% discount on the discounted price."
Wah!!
I bought it straight away. Since it's white, can bleach the top easily.

Think I am so sian in Australia. Can't believe it. Going back to Singapore is not having a holiday at all. I need to go somewhere else........

How to meet new friends (guys)

My receptionist said:" you should go out more often."

My receptionist's dad said:" you should go to a trendy bar!"

Another fellow podiatrist said:" no, maybe you should wait for a young and handsome bloke to come into the clinic and then you can drop dead from there."

The orthotic lab technician said:" have you been to that xxx club? There is a lot of young people hanging out there.."

Geez, I am giving an impression to all these people that I need to get a life.

Just a joke to share:
My receptionist added on:" If they can put a man on the moon, why can't they bring the rest of the men up there?"

Hurhur. Bad men should be exile up to the moon then.

You Frigging Bitc*

That refers to my previous landlord.She refused to return me my bond money. Say will return it but for the bloody 2 weeks, no news from her. By tomorrow, she and her ex husband can get ready to receive a summon for tribunal court hearing. Even though it's only a few hundred dollars, the money still doesn't belong to you beeech! Cannot stand people who are not being honest. Wait till karma falls on you KNNCCB si ABNN (if you don't know the latter abbreviation, just ask me).

VN and myself were discussing about our potential christmas gateaway. We wanna go to whitsundays (in Queensland- very beautiful island where lotsa couples got married there) and Great kepple island. Initially, we thought may be a bad idea to see so couples here and there. Then again, you never know where there may also be a few hot bods which deserve my drools on them. hurhur!! I'll make sure I'll bring a few bikinis set plus high SPF sunscreen along. Heh, 2 girls and a road trip.That would be loads of fun.

I miss the beaches in Perth...

Did I tell you I was in love with the Gypsy skirts nowadays?

Got this piece of very important information from this old lady patient of mine:

" if you want to buy a retirement village, you gotta pay a lump sum with a minimal cost from AU$75000. Then you have to pay about 170 bucks for every 2 weeks for maintainence cost.*fair enough*" As you can tell, I've already forsee my spinster mode and not interested to get hook up in near future.

Most boring weekend

Spent most of the time boiling the herbs to drink to improve my health. It is awfully bitter to drink but at least I don't feel as lethargic as I was yesterday. Otherwise, I'm spending the rest of my time uploading pics, chatting with VN and doing my tax stuffs.

Sissy sent me this bloglink:
http://tristefemme.blogspot.com
It is about this girl who chose to put up about her unwanted pregnancy on a blog. Very interesting blog that one should read on how the guy left once he found out she was pregnant. I still remember when I was a young and innocent 18year old nursing student, I was being put on a placement at a local women's hospital. I can never forget seeing aborted fetus in the treatment room. The fetus scene at the hospital always remain in my head. Don't know why and like I always tell myself, if you are not ready to deal with the consequences, then don't have sex. Yes, some people may say it's hard to control the emotions or rather think with your brain especially at the sparks of moment. I don't mind becoming a single mum once I'm ready plus no takers . 9 out of 10 guys I've met are either too thrashy or trying to get me laid. So what's the point of waiting for the right one.This is too hard......
Now I just wanna work hard, save enough money and buy a retirement village.

My body feels like a jelly

After stuffing so many western drugs for the past one week, my whole body feels so weak, so not energetic plus think I've slimmed down now. My pants is soo loose and I dislike that feeling. Everyday is plain porridge for all meals since I got not much appetite to eat.I miss mom to take care of me especially when I am so sick. She rang a couple of times to see if I am ok. And that's the pic of her which I took when I went back to Singapore. Oh that's my top she is wearing. Since it is too big for me, she can have it then. Mom always say I work too hard and yet all the bling goes to see the Dr. In fact, besides working mon-fri at the clinic, I am locuming at another clinic on Saturday. No choice, the burden of my brother's university fees is coming next year... ...

The people at the work place tried their best to take care of me each and anyway possible. Greg made me a cuppa hot lemon, Kylie- another fellow podiatrist always offer to make me a cuppa tea, the receptionist bought me some lamingtons.

Supposed to get a repeat dose of Augmentin tablets but the more I ate those antibiotics, the more nausea I get. Went over to see a traditional chinese physician and gave me 3 packets of herbs (that look like a bundle of roots, scrubs, and leaves) to be boiled and consumed. Then this Chinese Dr commented that I am in a good profession. Should get a chance to set up my own clinic if possible. He sorta relate how TCM (traditional chinese medicine) relates to the importance of feet. Yah, will set up my own clinic ultimately but I hate to forgo my holiday. The best is still marrying off someone rich and old and dying soon.

I am depressed because... ...

1) I am still sick.Never felt so miserable with flu, cough and fever.

2) I can't re-schedule a ingrown toenail surgery. I told the receptionist to change that but she claimed that it's not easy for patients to take time off for the procedure. *eyes roll up* What about me? What if I faint just because I can't breathe through the mask and will you be the one responsible?

3) pimples - they can never be your best friends.

4) whatever I cook and yet I can't taste it due to severe block nose.

5) I have to pay $ for flu tablets

6) my tax has not been done.

Just moved *again*

Finally,got myself a little nice one unit granny flat after struggling to find a place given like a week's notice to move out at the previous place. Will upload the pics of my new place for my blog fans to view later.

Got my connection set up today.Whee!!

On the down side, I am sick with fever, sore throat, blocked nose. Can't see the rest of the patients in the afternoon and managed to get Kylie to take over me. Met this Asian Dr from Malaysia and he even recommend a few good eating places in Sydney. As we all know, Asians can't get enough of good food. He suggested that I should live and settle down in Oz rather than going back to SG which he finds the latter too restrictive with rules.He even asked how many kids i have!?? Erm, a bit funny lor, he called out my name as "Miss XXXX" initially.

Sigh* Each time when I get so sick, I wish mom is next to me..... Can't talk to my patients properly. My throat just hurts each time when I tried to talk.

Off to bed for now to curb my misery.

Patient's sorrow

Mrs Sandler (not her real name of course) is from the country and just moved to the Sydney to live with her sister since the husband passed away recently. She sold the house and right now trying to look for one unit apartment or granny flat to live. Mrs Sandler is in her 70s and came in for a podiatry visit yesterday.
She looks healthy except for a stroke which causes the right -sided weakness to her body.
Since she haven't been to see a podiatrist for ages, I began to start trimming her toenails first. The next thing is she broke down and said:" I miss Russell so much.......he was my soul mate."
Being in a profession, I always think one should be more empathic rather than sympathetic towards the patients. In the end, I got her distracted in the conversations which at least, made it easier for my treatment.

She must have loved him so much........ As for me, I am still waiting patiently for someone whom I can grow old and live happily ever after.

One of those randoms...

Judging from the August earnings, I doubt I can go to the Annual's Podiatry conference in New Zeland. I'm planning to take up another job to work on Saturday at a local clinic. My life is pretty much stagnant in Sydney. No party, staying at home to watch CSI/Law&Order, online and washing/ironing clothes with occasional 1 or 2 bottles of beer.

Not sure for how long I can sustain such lifestyle.

However, wait till I've settled for the new housing, I plan to take up salsa dance. VN's coming to Sydney on this Friday which I'll be looking forward to meet her.

I think my room mate , Di, is very lucky to have a boyfriend like Pete. He actually bought her a laptop for her school use in regardless that Di stated she will pay back the money to him. Pete often drop by at my place and the couple would go to gym on every Tuesday evening and followed by cooking dinner together afterwards. *so lovely dovey*Think I am married to the TV faithfully every night for his accompany. It's been quite a long time that I have fallen in love. Maybe I don't even know how to love someone anymore. I don't feel panicking about not getting tied up or rather more afraid of meeting thrashy guys. On the lighter note, i'll be missing Di as she will be moving out to another place this weekend as well.

Moving *again*

Back in Sydney and now tying to get back into usual routine. My *itch landlord was 'kind' enough to give me only 7 days' notice to evacuate the house. I spotted a self-contained granny flat just 5 mins down the road and hopefully no one has taken that house yet.

Work is as usual except suffering from a bit of jetlag (no doubt I am only 2 hours ahead of Singapore's time). I was so wide awake at 12mn, feeling that it's still too early to sleep. I am planning to work one day a week at a local hospital which is like about 20mins drive from where I lived. At least, that would give me more opportunity to meet more new people.

Hasn't been talking to Dad much ever since I got home. He and his menopausal mood. That is something really hard for me to accept for what he is now. He gets into a foul mood out of the blue and the next time he is trying to talk to you in a cool and calm manner. There are certain things which I can't stand him asking me to do. He is a good hearted person but if only he can stop asking me to diagnose his friends' feet condition. He brought me to this Aunty's place and asked if I can do anything to her arthritic knee.Obviously, my dad doesn't know what I'm doing in profession. The last time he asked if I could help this uncle with his foot drop problem which eventually lead a major upsetting incident between us. For a moment, I can't believe we are quarrelling over a stranger.That's the thing in traditional Asians. They can't lose 'face'. They need to show off what they are good at...or rather presenting themselves in the best manner.
Maybe I will apologise to him in regardless whether I've done anything wrong or not. Just to make him happy at least.

Last blog in Singapore (*edited)

Received an email from my Aussie roomate. We had to evacuate the house in within 10 days time. No point panicking until I get back to Sydney then.Grrr* Moving house sux big time.
I'm still losing my voice. Seen a Dr yesterday and had a injection on my butt. *quite painful ok!?*
Finally get a chance to catch up with my best girlfriends for a quick drink at night. It has been ages that we girls managed to get together and have a good chat. Wen is getting married next year so I may be planning to come back to SG in June then.

Gotta meet Shan & Ed for lunch now. They are so sweet to give me a farewell treat. Tonight will still go to Balaclava because some friends are coming down for the sake of me leaving tomorrow. Definitely gonna be a big crowd tonight (nope, I didn't go in the end - too sick still).I do feel very glad to have many friends who care about me. In fact, they actually cancelled the whole drinking session since I'm sick.What's more can I ask for.

Nothing feels like home especially you are sick.I can only say that Mom took really good care of me for the past few days. That's why I never like to get sick when I'm overseas.

Hope Cousin Eve will get well soon. Thanks to her mates who passed the Dkny watch to me ;p Now I'm a happy Jan.

Managed to catch hold of a long lost friend working at Stila cosmetic counter around Shawn house.Had a quick catch up and exchanged emails. It's such a long time that since we last talked.

I can't sleep now..I usually get quite excited about sitting on plane. It's a good feeling to be on flight.....sounds crazy?

More sick.......

Think I really have to drag myself to the airport on Saturday morning... ... My throat hurts, blocked nose, headache, dizziness and the skin on my face starts to peel excessively due to the drugs I'm taking. Mom wanted me to meet her at Raffles Place for lunch but I'm just too sick to go out. Morever, I gotta meet Cousin Eve in evening to get the watch later at Bugis. Had to reject Ric and J on the movie tonight. My best girlfriends are organising a coffee session at Siglap later. Think no matter what I still have to go on that one.
Tomorrow will be meeting Shan in the afternoon and planning to stay at home for the rest of evening.
Looking forward for a peaceful Friday evening... ...

Mom has been nagging at me to see a Dr later.Hate to be sick.My head feels as if it's weighing 100 over tonnes..

Acceptance

Mr So-So thinks I am calling him names on my blog. Whatever. I don't usually use real names on my blog. I am running out of my time and resources to sort out things with him. On the other hand, I've been really sick as a puppy. Somehow I just can't take accusations of something which is NOT true (eg, the calling name thingy). As part of learning curve, I have to accept the fact that not all humans think the same and not everyone can take on you for who you are and what you are. Then again, perhaps Mr Soso has his own reasons for being so worked up. I will always remember the good times we shared despite that we most likely will not see each other at any more.

Ok, gotta tell myself stop tearing for *uck sake.

Right now, I just wanna enjoy my last 2 days stay in Singapore.....not sure when I wanna come home for another holi.



On the lighter note, I've had a nice Jap food dinner treat from Ken and his wifey. Gene bought all of us drinks after that. Ken smsed me today saying that he is sure to make me a happy drunk this Friday at Bala. Seriously, I don't think I can make it this Friday- since I'm having cough and sore throat.
Caught the show with Naomi today at Lido cinema. It has been ages that I've seen a movie here in SG. Met up with Emily later and she gave me a Christmas magnet made by one of the disabled kids at the special school. So sweet of her.
Had my hair cut on Tuesday. Spoke a lot with my best friend's auntie and the hairstylist. They kept on encouraging me to come back to SG to work.*sigh*

Just cried

Mr So-so happened to know I got a blog site. In fact, I don't even tell any of best/closest friends about this. I was abit hurt when I received some sms from him which were not meant to be true. All I need is some time to consider whether I should let him know my blogsite or not. This is my personal blog and I do chose carefully on the people to read it. The fellow bloggers which i've linked them on my website are mostly strangers - yes, people whom I've not met except through the blog itself.
I love to write about daily randoms of my day - the only avenue to say anything I want here. I always have the feeling that the blog is my best buddy. Friends in Australia cannot be compared to the friends in Singapore.....They are just different.....That's why when it comes to certain things which I can't relate to anyone in Oz, I'll blog it.

So much hurt after those SMSes, I had to excuse myself a few times from the crowd in order to sob at the toilet. How could people just assume that I am writing bad things about them and yet not reading the blog.

I wanna tell Eugene, Donny and Constance: thanks for being there with all your care and concern at that time. I love you all.

I know I should be ignoring him for at least not respecting my privacy.But, I don't wish to leave Singapore with a heavy heart plus bitterness shit. I'll do whatever I can to clear the air between him and myself....... for as long as I've done my best.

Gotta sleep early since I don't feel well nowadays.....

Ouuuch...my throat hurts!


Mr So-so supposed to msg me about the sentosa trip on Sunday and yet he didn't. As FF said, guys suck sometimes maybe ;(. Anyhow, I still go ahead to Silosa beach with the fellow girlfriends. Played volleyball and frisbee games in a team. Had a good chat with Vone. Heh, finally she is getting her first boyfriend soon. However for Su's case, we sorta condemn that guy coz he claimed that he can only meet Su at the end of the month when the pay day arrives. That guy really sucked! Vone and myself keep on grilling at Su that she shouldn'y give in too much. Plus Su had sent him her pic and not vice versa. How uncool he is.

Getting broke very soon..just spent like 200 bucks on medications.Sian* that almost equivalent to my DKNY watch. Life sucks with face lotsa pimples and down with a sore throat.
Had to cancel the dinner plan with Eugene and Kenneth tonight then. Met up with Annie yesterday and I'll always remember what she said:" Be gracious - no matter what happened.".

Last weekend in Singapore

Had my last day of work at the local hospital. One of the PCA (patient care assistant) is so sweet that she bought me a pack of Sunrise coffee- supposedly to be one of Nestle's best coffee. Annie- another PCA, always to persude me to stay on and work for good. Then again, I don't think I am ready for that kind of lifestyle in Singapore yet.

Met up with Emily and Naomi. Emily used to be a ex-nurse and Naomi was her ex-patient. I got to know Emily through a national day parade event.Naomi was my internet friend. Get to see the circle here? We had a nice dinner together at Millenia Walk and followed by a coffee session at TCC. After all the yakkings, I proceeded to Balaclava to meet a group of my girlfriends. As usual, the band played good music. Since the place was too smokey, the rest of us were just sitting outside the bar. Of course, as time passess, the group started to get a bit 'high'- though not reaching the point of hallucination. A few pals started forcing me to bottoms up on glasses of wine. Don't know why it seemed to be that I am the popular target of the night.
Managed to get JM to send me home. However, I am not going to continue my friendship with him anymore.
He is totally disgusting fella. He should look himself into the mirror. Don't he dare to think that just because I am leaving for Aust next Sat that he can take advanatage of me. What a real *uckhead. Wish I got a chopper with me at that time, then I can 'karate' his hands off me.
I felt sorta traumatised about the whole incident the next following day.
So he messaged me twice and yet I gave no reply. Last night at 2am, he was asking if I am ignoring him. Obviously dumbass. You brought this upon yourself and now you've being 'dumped' for good.

Saturday has proved to be quite a fruitful one for me. Met up with Susan and Yvoone at Orchard. In the later part of evening, met up with Anita.So happy for her that she has found her Mr Right after meeting a bunch of losers on and off. See? I think most dudes DO have a problem about themselves. Around dinner time, went over to Tanjong Pagar to meet up with Callie and David for Salsa night.
I had an absolute fun time there. No doubt Ive just learnt the basic movement for like 5mins. I got a dance invite from a stranger right after that.
Geez, I need to find some dance lessons once I get back to Sydney ;)

Class 95 FM

My favourite radio station in Singapore. I know I'm gonna miss it heaps when I get back to Sydney on 23rd July. Why is it I always such shitty feelings when I know I had to go back Aussie to work? Is it that sort of life which i really want? So contradicting myself as usual....
What is it exactly stopping me to work in Singapore? Perhaps the only reason would be the overseas experience which I needed most. The thought of moving house just makes it more sucky to go back to Syd.

Just happened to know that one of my fellow friend's mom may have Ca Breast. To think that he had just came over here to work for not even a month and yet such a drastic thing can befall onto him.I don't know him for a long time but managed to come out twice for a few beers.
However, there is only so much I can do.....*sigh*
That's my weakest link- can't bear to see ppl getting hurt/depressed.

How come this JM always msg me and yet never ask me out? Not only he msg me bo liao msgs but I am beginning to find him a prick.