Deep sorrows
J and myself went shopping last Saturday but unfortunately, the shops we went to didn't carry the international designed brands that he likes.Still, he bought a nice pair of shoes from Colorado and a jacket from Myers. And then, drove back to my place as I need to get change for a party that evening before sending him home. We kissed again and even though there wasn't any sighs of holding hands at the mall. I'm beginning to be in doubt of what I am to him actually. Friends don't kiss each other passionately and on the other hand, I don't expect he asked me to be his g.f at all.That is absolutely out of the question of course. Am I being "used" here or accomodating his or my emptiness without a partner? Right now, I wish to have the strength to get over him.I think this is the best choice rather than suffering from tremendous amount of heartbreakings later on.
I feel so weak and vulnerable when it comes to matters related to heart.
Got back from Church and I started to weep in my room.....
On the lighter note, it was a wild happening saturday night. Partied from fremantle to north bridge. Firstly, it was Anna's b'day at Benny's bar and drove back home and Shougi came over and pick me to Metro. It was a fantastic night with the uni students living at the hostel.Uhm, think i didn;t even pay a single cent for any drinks.Hmm...but it was good fun after all. Oh those, toesteppers--> hate them at the clubs.EEKS
Sunday, May 30, 2004
Saturday, May 29, 2004
Thursday night was a little exceptional. I met up with J in Northbridge.Didn't realise he was sitting in the cafe and yet I was messaging him outside the cafe to ask exactly where he was. I felt a little embrassed though..when he first looked into my eyes.From there, I asked if he wanted to go to Universal bar for a drink. Indeed, I made the right choice and the band was playing Barry white's songs..."can't get enough of your love baby..."
J bought me the first drink and in return, I bought him one after that. Initially, he refused my offer but I just reassured him. We had a fair bit of chat of his family background and so on.At least, he is working now as a house painter which gives him fair amount of money to spend. He had this funny expression on his face which I made him do it many times and of course, I had a good laugh out of it. ;p
He stole a kiss on my lips in the bar and well, I took it with a pinch of salt actually.Not until when we walked out of the bar where he started to hold my hands.I dropped him off at this place after that.Gee , he seems to be living in an victorian style house and eventually, I went in and took a look at the place. Met his housemate, M who is another Irish girl he lives with. He showed me her room and his room and uhm....... we kissed even more and he just simply refused to let me leave.By the time I wanted to get back home was 2am.Anyway, we just slept (nothing dramatic happens )till the next morning that i sent him off to train station to work. Not forgetting that he gave me another nice long kiss and we're going shopping tomorrow!yay*
I keep telling myself this: gotta be more sensible before making a decision. Just a rather brief statement to remind myself.More tmorrow...
J bought me the first drink and in return, I bought him one after that. Initially, he refused my offer but I just reassured him. We had a fair bit of chat of his family background and so on.At least, he is working now as a house painter which gives him fair amount of money to spend. He had this funny expression on his face which I made him do it many times and of course, I had a good laugh out of it. ;p
He stole a kiss on my lips in the bar and well, I took it with a pinch of salt actually.Not until when we walked out of the bar where he started to hold my hands.I dropped him off at this place after that.Gee , he seems to be living in an victorian style house and eventually, I went in and took a look at the place. Met his housemate, M who is another Irish girl he lives with. He showed me her room and his room and uhm....... we kissed even more and he just simply refused to let me leave.By the time I wanted to get back home was 2am.Anyway, we just slept (nothing dramatic happens )till the next morning that i sent him off to train station to work. Not forgetting that he gave me another nice long kiss and we're going shopping tomorrow!yay*
I keep telling myself this: gotta be more sensible before making a decision. Just a rather brief statement to remind myself.More tmorrow...
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Tonight's dinner menu:
rice with stir-fry veg+ mince meat in oyster sauce
Work is alright I supposed but I was a little upset or feeling rather disappointed. Some folks at the senior citizens complained about moi not 'caring' enough or whatever shit. Anyway, my boss didn't tell me exactly the story. Boss said he is also not every sure about what exactly is happening there but hey, the folks doesn't pay as much as private consultation charges. The usual consult time for each patient is about 20 mins and that include doing some adminstrative work like collecting the fees, writing out notes, and making the next appointment date. I haven't detect anything unusual from those old folks and my bet is they probably 'back-stabbed' me with their rumblings to someone's else. Seriously, at all the practices where I'm working at is dealing with all the veterans and elderly people only.And nothing else more than that. Yeah who knows, they(bosses) might be exploiting me instead. I feel so stagnant at this point and i got the urge to explore all other different areas of podiatry please ...rather than having nails, callus, corns. I am not complaining being bored but at least, they got to let me have a fair bit of mixed varieties.
With all these shi*t that is happening, one of the bosses probably thinks I might not competent enough to handle the patients at private setting.*sigh* Ultimately, before I left the clinic, boss said don't take anything too hard where he just wants to reflect whatever he has heard 'indirectly' from the patients. Indeed, truth hurts.
If only people learn to appreciate a bit more in life, the world will be a much better place to live in. Unfortunately, in the real world, the story ain't exactly like this.
rice with stir-fry veg+ mince meat in oyster sauce
Work is alright I supposed but I was a little upset or feeling rather disappointed. Some folks at the senior citizens complained about moi not 'caring' enough or whatever shit. Anyway, my boss didn't tell me exactly the story. Boss said he is also not every sure about what exactly is happening there but hey, the folks doesn't pay as much as private consultation charges. The usual consult time for each patient is about 20 mins and that include doing some adminstrative work like collecting the fees, writing out notes, and making the next appointment date. I haven't detect anything unusual from those old folks and my bet is they probably 'back-stabbed' me with their rumblings to someone's else. Seriously, at all the practices where I'm working at is dealing with all the veterans and elderly people only.And nothing else more than that. Yeah who knows, they(bosses) might be exploiting me instead. I feel so stagnant at this point and i got the urge to explore all other different areas of podiatry please ...rather than having nails, callus, corns. I am not complaining being bored but at least, they got to let me have a fair bit of mixed varieties.
With all these shi*t that is happening, one of the bosses probably thinks I might not competent enough to handle the patients at private setting.*sigh* Ultimately, before I left the clinic, boss said don't take anything too hard where he just wants to reflect whatever he has heard 'indirectly' from the patients. Indeed, truth hurts.
If only people learn to appreciate a bit more in life, the world will be a much better place to live in. Unfortunately, in the real world, the story ain't exactly like this.
Monday, May 24, 2004
Varicosities
I slept too late last night chatting with Vimes and ended up feeling really lethargic the whole of today. Woke up at 7 yish in the morning to go to Uni and then followed by a haircut n colour appointment down at Northbridge. Usually I don't talk much to the hairstylist and let him to do whatever he wants with my hair. I rather enjoy browsing through numerous of fashion mags there.*shrugs* I'm just tired I guess and he even gave me like a mini massage on my shoulders?? For the first time that perks me up a little *wink*
After that,drove down to dunno the-name-of-street to this Viet Chinese cafe called Pha Vin (I think) for lunch. Wanted to renew my nursing staff card and the agency moved to Wellington st instead of St Georges Tce! *sigh gotta make another trip again.Went to POST office for a while and did a bit of food shopping.
Oh, i gave a name card to my hairstylist coz' he complained of foot pain from standing too long hours ;p
Had a quick chat with the Aunty Jessica working at Kongs (chinese food grocery store).She's a nice lady and certainly know which are the days I'll be at the clinic working.Moreoever, the clinic is just a few doors down the street from the chinese store.
I emailed the Irish dude and probably we'll be catching up over the weekend.We shall see then....
Daniel called me from Singapore! Poor him suffering from some incompetent valves and he almost had stripping of the veins done! Nevertheless, he choses to have laser therapy and glad he's feeling much better and lesser pain. We chatted for half an hour and I reckon I do need some compression stockings too with my medial saphenous veins slighty bulging out on my left leg.
I slept too late last night chatting with Vimes and ended up feeling really lethargic the whole of today. Woke up at 7 yish in the morning to go to Uni and then followed by a haircut n colour appointment down at Northbridge. Usually I don't talk much to the hairstylist and let him to do whatever he wants with my hair. I rather enjoy browsing through numerous of fashion mags there.*shrugs* I'm just tired I guess and he even gave me like a mini massage on my shoulders?? For the first time that perks me up a little *wink*
After that,drove down to dunno the-name-of-street to this Viet Chinese cafe called Pha Vin (I think) for lunch. Wanted to renew my nursing staff card and the agency moved to Wellington st instead of St Georges Tce! *sigh gotta make another trip again.Went to POST office for a while and did a bit of food shopping.
Oh, i gave a name card to my hairstylist coz' he complained of foot pain from standing too long hours ;p
Had a quick chat with the Aunty Jessica working at Kongs (chinese food grocery store).She's a nice lady and certainly know which are the days I'll be at the clinic working.Moreoever, the clinic is just a few doors down the street from the chinese store.
I emailed the Irish dude and probably we'll be catching up over the weekend.We shall see then....
Daniel called me from Singapore! Poor him suffering from some incompetent valves and he almost had stripping of the veins done! Nevertheless, he choses to have laser therapy and glad he's feeling much better and lesser pain. We chatted for half an hour and I reckon I do need some compression stockings too with my medial saphenous veins slighty bulging out on my left leg.
Sunday, May 23, 2004
Woke up this morning and made myself some yummy egg and bacon muffin with a cuppa espresso. Feeling somewhat tired from the late night on Friday.Yeah probably getting old...someone told me I'm starting to behave like an 'old' woman. Actually, shouldn't be the word 'matured' which is more appropriate?
I was intending to stay at home for the whole of Sunday ..I should be printing notes off the uni's website but I'm just *ucking lazy.Opps* (excuse my French). Anna rang me and we decided to head down to Harbour town and basically, squandering my money on some cheap but nice tops from Table 8 and Esprit.
That goes the whole of Sunday arvo.EEKS* Not very productive I must say.
Irish dude emailed me if I was keen to go out with a drink next week.Haven't reply him but I'll think about it.......;p
One more exam and assignment to go!!!! I can't wait to reach till the end of the road on studying.
I was intending to stay at home for the whole of Sunday ..I should be printing notes off the uni's website but I'm just *ucking lazy.Opps* (excuse my French). Anna rang me and we decided to head down to Harbour town and basically, squandering my money on some cheap but nice tops from Table 8 and Esprit.
That goes the whole of Sunday arvo.EEKS* Not very productive I must say.
Irish dude emailed me if I was keen to go out with a drink next week.Haven't reply him but I'll think about it.......;p
One more exam and assignment to go!!!! I can't wait to reach till the end of the road on studying.
Saturday, May 22, 2004
12.10pm
I have never slept till so late as compared to the past those months. My usual day always begin early in the morning until evening around 4pm. At this time, (especially during winter)I'll never fail to hibernate under the blanket.Yeah I know, I can be a real Ms Piggy. *onik*
There are so many things which I need to work it out eventually:
Firstly, I need to start work a lot more to pay off the migration fees.Next, going to Nursing agency next week to sort out my new staff card and I'll be ready to return to my nurse job over the weekends. Occasionally I'll be working at Artisan orthotic lab making foot insoles.It is quite a bit of messy job where one would get plasters all over at the end of the day.Otherwise, i'll concentrate on my podiatry job on weekdays.
Well, the above plan is for the coming June /July holidays. Public liability insurance +car registration are the main bills to pay in June.
If only i can work full time and I can't because of the eligibilty of my visa status allows me to only work 20 hours/week and unlimited hours during school holidays only.
Sometimes, I feel my body is 'breaking apart' soon....and yet I'm just hanging there...
Right now, the main priority is to study and sit for my exam coming in June. Till then, that marks the completion of another BSc degree. ;)
Oh got a postcard from Bobby from Korea!heh, land of yummy kimchee?
I have never slept till so late as compared to the past those months. My usual day always begin early in the morning until evening around 4pm. At this time, (especially during winter)I'll never fail to hibernate under the blanket.Yeah I know, I can be a real Ms Piggy. *onik*
There are so many things which I need to work it out eventually:
Firstly, I need to start work a lot more to pay off the migration fees.Next, going to Nursing agency next week to sort out my new staff card and I'll be ready to return to my nurse job over the weekends. Occasionally I'll be working at Artisan orthotic lab making foot insoles.It is quite a bit of messy job where one would get plasters all over at the end of the day.Otherwise, i'll concentrate on my podiatry job on weekdays.
Well, the above plan is for the coming June /July holidays. Public liability insurance +car registration are the main bills to pay in June.
If only i can work full time and I can't because of the eligibilty of my visa status allows me to only work 20 hours/week and unlimited hours during school holidays only.
Sometimes, I feel my body is 'breaking apart' soon....and yet I'm just hanging there...
Right now, the main priority is to study and sit for my exam coming in June. Till then, that marks the completion of another BSc degree. ;)
Oh got a postcard from Bobby from Korea!heh, land of yummy kimchee?
Thursday, May 20, 2004
Scary Thoughts
Ok, the Canadian dude, S, turns out to be a *hitless head. He's a real player and this is confirmed by my banana friend.I was astonished to hear that he slept with banana's g.f and treats her like shit. OMG, I could have been 'trapped'in some ways and not knowing anything at all. Blessing in disguise I must say. I guess I have been hurt enough emotionally by dudes and HIM must be watching after me.
I just want to say 'Thank you' to HIM.
Ok, the Canadian dude, S, turns out to be a *hitless head. He's a real player and this is confirmed by my banana friend.I was astonished to hear that he slept with banana's g.f and treats her like shit. OMG, I could have been 'trapped'in some ways and not knowing anything at all. Blessing in disguise I must say. I guess I have been hurt enough emotionally by dudes and HIM must be watching after me.
I just want to say 'Thank you' to HIM.
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
Thoughts on my friend, Mr Valium
GN sent me a SMS late last night.He claimed that he has this feeling that i don't want to chat with him anymore.Come to think about it, we never have any common interests to talk anyway.
It is always evolving about the party and clubbing.... We hardly meet for a catch up and neither he talks much over the phone.Sometimes, I can only understand him through my observations via his actions.He is certainly a man of not many words. I never tell him this before but I do sense a deep melancholic of emotion that is locked at the bottom of his heart.Each time when he talks about Ireland always reminds me of the lonliness when I was in Perth for the 1st 2 years.Nevertheless, I felt this is so wrong/ungrateful of him just to send a SMS assuming things which is not true. When did I ever disappoint him when he needs help in Perth in whatever ways. When did I not offer my invitation for him to come my place for dinner so that you can make yourself feel more at home.When you screwed up your flight, your friends and myself have encouraged you to move on.
Is that really difficult to come up and clarify this instead of telling me off via SMS?
Rocephine ;(
GN sent me a SMS late last night.He claimed that he has this feeling that i don't want to chat with him anymore.Come to think about it, we never have any common interests to talk anyway.
It is always evolving about the party and clubbing.... We hardly meet for a catch up and neither he talks much over the phone.Sometimes, I can only understand him through my observations via his actions.He is certainly a man of not many words. I never tell him this before but I do sense a deep melancholic of emotion that is locked at the bottom of his heart.Each time when he talks about Ireland always reminds me of the lonliness when I was in Perth for the 1st 2 years.Nevertheless, I felt this is so wrong/ungrateful of him just to send a SMS assuming things which is not true. When did I ever disappoint him when he needs help in Perth in whatever ways. When did I not offer my invitation for him to come my place for dinner so that you can make yourself feel more at home.When you screwed up your flight, your friends and myself have encouraged you to move on.
Is that really difficult to come up and clarify this instead of telling me off via SMS?
Rocephine ;(
Hi, where do you come from?
I'm so tired waking up early in the morning like 6 yish to have a shower before getting on the road to the clinic. In fact, my body is still in the snooze mode and thank goodness the first patient didn't turn up (due to diarrhoa? poor man) and I managed to grab a cuppa Earl Grey.
----okay my eyes are closing now......time check 5pm..let me take a nap first...zzzz
Back...
I had a great nightout with Shougi and Raj (my nursing pals) at the Hip-E club. Poor mates were 'attacked' by the gays. And they just had to pretend to act like a couple. And the funny thing is shougi always takes care of us really well and both girls can't stop pretending that shougi is 'mine'. And of course, I did bought drink for Shou too. Even though he has heaps of money in his pocket, one shouldn't greed on others. Bought him a Becks and glad he likes it.Budweiser is still the better choice for me though. After a couple of beers and a shot of Tequlia, I put up a brave front and say 'hi' to this dude at the bar. This is usually not my cup of tea but what the heck. He was gentlemanly enough to get me a Lemon Ruski (yeahhhh, russian vodhka) while I bought him a Canadian Club in return. After much chatting, we decided to get down to the dance floor.Erm, this is part where it gets a little saucy...uhm...anyway, we didn't kiss or anything like this and he got my number.At this point of time, my study is still the main priority and emotional matters should take a back seat. I would only decide to step into a relationship when I feel 100% confidence in giving my committment and trusting him to feel that way too.
That's the thing....I trust people too much..too easily and I'm always the one end up getting hurt.
I'm so tired waking up early in the morning like 6 yish to have a shower before getting on the road to the clinic. In fact, my body is still in the snooze mode and thank goodness the first patient didn't turn up (due to diarrhoa? poor man) and I managed to grab a cuppa Earl Grey.
----okay my eyes are closing now......time check 5pm..let me take a nap first...zzzz
Back...
I had a great nightout with Shougi and Raj (my nursing pals) at the Hip-E club. Poor mates were 'attacked' by the gays. And they just had to pretend to act like a couple. And the funny thing is shougi always takes care of us really well and both girls can't stop pretending that shougi is 'mine'. And of course, I did bought drink for Shou too. Even though he has heaps of money in his pocket, one shouldn't greed on others. Bought him a Becks and glad he likes it.Budweiser is still the better choice for me though. After a couple of beers and a shot of Tequlia, I put up a brave front and say 'hi' to this dude at the bar. This is usually not my cup of tea but what the heck. He was gentlemanly enough to get me a Lemon Ruski (yeahhhh, russian vodhka) while I bought him a Canadian Club in return. After much chatting, we decided to get down to the dance floor.Erm, this is part where it gets a little saucy...uhm...anyway, we didn't kiss or anything like this and he got my number.At this point of time, my study is still the main priority and emotional matters should take a back seat. I would only decide to step into a relationship when I feel 100% confidence in giving my committment and trusting him to feel that way too.
That's the thing....I trust people too much..too easily and I'm always the one end up getting hurt.
Monday, May 17, 2004
Time
Nothing's much happening today except I went for a full body massage which I think I need it for quite some time. The neck and upper back ache is killing me. Sent a few postcards to my lovely VirtualTourist friends.And my boss hasn't pay me yet!What the??
Wish I got more time to read other stuffs like non-med related books. I wish I can squeese in more time to visit my patient friends. Wish I can have more time to bake some delicious blueberry muffins for my friends here.
In fact, my plan for next semester is to take up Golf Clinic and right now, Zhen and myself took our first Jazz dance class today! It was not that expensive and the practice is held in a church not far from our place.
Rang Shougi and rest to go down Hip-E together tmorrow and I'm also try to get them down to Bursewood for Can Teen (Fundraising for Cancer teens)at Ruby Room this coming Friday. I'm gonna have a whacky whacky fun week!! Whee! That's the way Ah Huh Ah Huh, i like it! ;p
Nothing's much happening today except I went for a full body massage which I think I need it for quite some time. The neck and upper back ache is killing me. Sent a few postcards to my lovely VirtualTourist friends.And my boss hasn't pay me yet!What the??
Wish I got more time to read other stuffs like non-med related books. I wish I can squeese in more time to visit my patient friends. Wish I can have more time to bake some delicious blueberry muffins for my friends here.
In fact, my plan for next semester is to take up Golf Clinic and right now, Zhen and myself took our first Jazz dance class today! It was not that expensive and the practice is held in a church not far from our place.
Rang Shougi and rest to go down Hip-E together tmorrow and I'm also try to get them down to Bursewood for Can Teen (Fundraising for Cancer teens)at Ruby Room this coming Friday. I'm gonna have a whacky whacky fun week!! Whee! That's the way Ah Huh Ah Huh, i like it! ;p
Sunday, May 16, 2004
Morrison : Jazzy and Blues Cafe
Yesterday I was out almost the whole day! Firstly, drove down to Alexander Heights to see Hung about my first start at his clinic next Friday. Yippee! How exciting!
Then received a message from Raj and so both of us decided to go carousel for some shopping. Didn't get anything much except a fabulous looking top for 10 bucks.
Headed down to the river for a run..and this keeps getting better. I need to run to clear my mind and unecessary emotions so that I can say focus what is important for me right now. I do understand that there are some people who come in and out of my life and only the geninue ones will leave their footprints behind. Friends are so important in life and sometimes, we only can concentrate on those which we think they are important. Yes, some friends are also worth to even send an email or saying Hi and no doubt we may not be one of the closest friends.
Keep those friends out whom doesn't respect you and even admit your presence. Because I don't think they are worth the time and your precious efforts.
Later the night, Zhen picked me up to go for a Star Sun concert- a famous singaporean pastor turned singer came to Perth. I bought her CDs and indeed, the lyrics do reflect on my current feelings.
After the concert, Zhen and myself went down to Northbridge and had Chinese for dinner plus check out this fantastic lovely cafe.
MOrrison "Blues and Jazzy cafe" ,next to Elephant pub.
I love the music , ambience, nice staffs and probably i should go there again.
Oh dear, I'm beginning to fall in love with that place...
Yesterday I was out almost the whole day! Firstly, drove down to Alexander Heights to see Hung about my first start at his clinic next Friday. Yippee! How exciting!
Then received a message from Raj and so both of us decided to go carousel for some shopping. Didn't get anything much except a fabulous looking top for 10 bucks.
Headed down to the river for a run..and this keeps getting better. I need to run to clear my mind and unecessary emotions so that I can say focus what is important for me right now. I do understand that there are some people who come in and out of my life and only the geninue ones will leave their footprints behind. Friends are so important in life and sometimes, we only can concentrate on those which we think they are important. Yes, some friends are also worth to even send an email or saying Hi and no doubt we may not be one of the closest friends.
Keep those friends out whom doesn't respect you and even admit your presence. Because I don't think they are worth the time and your precious efforts.
Later the night, Zhen picked me up to go for a Star Sun concert- a famous singaporean pastor turned singer came to Perth. I bought her CDs and indeed, the lyrics do reflect on my current feelings.
After the concert, Zhen and myself went down to Northbridge and had Chinese for dinner plus check out this fantastic lovely cafe.
MOrrison "Blues and Jazzy cafe" ,next to Elephant pub.
I love the music , ambience, nice staffs and probably i should go there again.
Oh dear, I'm beginning to fall in love with that place...
Friday, May 14, 2004
City to Shop
Woke up late in the morning and I felt I'm almost freezed to death.One may think that I could have gotten used to the weather by now but nope. I can never fight against the cold. Made some pancakes for breakfast before heading down to uni to hand in my assignments. Met Therese (who is a nursing laboratory technician) at Nursing building and Beth (over at podiatry building) for lunch. All of us had a good catch up conversations. Soon, I left and took public transport to the aboriginal health centre to meet Sam -my senior in podiatry to return him his assignment and again, we had a few mins of talk coz' i didn't want to take up too much of his time since he's having lunch half way through.
Took a train down to City and gee, I felt that it has been a long time that I step into the region. My best bargain of the day is a Sportsgirl turtleneck top for only $5 bucks.Whee! And other wise, I've made a list of things to buy which didn't happen in the end.Saw a couple of books that I wanna buy!EEKS* Maybe going to Carousel will be a better option.
But first, I need to drive down to the practice at Alexander Heights.
Don't feel like doing anything on a Friday night....*sign* maybe I should be reading through all those insurance policies in regards to my practice.
Otherwise, I'll be going to have teh tarik session with my g.f later. So bored shitless on a Friday night. And meeting up with Zhen tomorrow night. Gosh* we spoke so much crap on the phone.
Meanwhile, Rea from Budapest is leaving from Warsaw. She just had her exams and poor thing she was sick like a puppy.
Paws day on sunday! Wish I can participate in that event! Where can i rent a dog uh??
Woke up late in the morning and I felt I'm almost freezed to death.One may think that I could have gotten used to the weather by now but nope. I can never fight against the cold. Made some pancakes for breakfast before heading down to uni to hand in my assignments. Met Therese (who is a nursing laboratory technician) at Nursing building and Beth (over at podiatry building) for lunch. All of us had a good catch up conversations. Soon, I left and took public transport to the aboriginal health centre to meet Sam -my senior in podiatry to return him his assignment and again, we had a few mins of talk coz' i didn't want to take up too much of his time since he's having lunch half way through.
Took a train down to City and gee, I felt that it has been a long time that I step into the region. My best bargain of the day is a Sportsgirl turtleneck top for only $5 bucks.Whee! And other wise, I've made a list of things to buy which didn't happen in the end.Saw a couple of books that I wanna buy!EEKS* Maybe going to Carousel will be a better option.
But first, I need to drive down to the practice at Alexander Heights.
Don't feel like doing anything on a Friday night....*sign* maybe I should be reading through all those insurance policies in regards to my practice.
Otherwise, I'll be going to have teh tarik session with my g.f later. So bored shitless on a Friday night. And meeting up with Zhen tomorrow night. Gosh* we spoke so much crap on the phone.
Meanwhile, Rea from Budapest is leaving from Warsaw. She just had her exams and poor thing she was sick like a puppy.
Paws day on sunday! Wish I can participate in that event! Where can i rent a dog uh??
Everything happens for a reason
Have been running up and about today. Sorted my pay invoice with the boss and I can't wait for the blings blings into my account.Went back home after that and finally, my assignments are reaching till the end of the road. 2 more to go for this semester before I call it quits for this degree programme.
Rang Hung yesterday and hope he can give me more jobs over the coming holiday.I am considering to continue my nursing job too. The other reason why I want to work so hard is because my travel bug is biting on me. My next destination is Sydney and indeed, I can't wait to sit on one of those planes again!With who? God knows.
Went out with Zhen later this evening to a Christian Summit concert and that was excellent.Met Chrissy and her b.f after that at a Bubble teahouse in Northbridge. Weather has been getting more and more chilly and I've swopped to my duck feathered blanket now.Ahhh* It is so hard to get out of the bed every morning which i prefer to get snuggled under the blanket though ;p
*ponder* Sometimes, I wonder what is exactly going through a man's brain. Every now and then, I got to know some new guys who treated me nicely and yet the following day, they will just "disappeared" without any reason.For instance, J was one of the sweetest guy I've ever met.He is probably the first guy to ask my permission to kiss me and never did I hear from him again after that. Maybe he has found someone whom he likes or he's good in his fling-ing. The point I'm trying to get across is that my first intention of getting to know a guy is to be his friend first. However, along the way of getting- to -know process always divert to something else. This happens countless of times. Or perhaps, is there something wrong in myself? keep attracting these sorts of men who can drive me emotionally disturbed.
Will such guys please leave me alone?
For a moment I thought he would be a great pal to watch a Sarah Brightman concert, or to attend a party for fundraising for cancer kids, or go to a museum visit together or even have a good chat over a beer session.
I'm sure these things happened for a reason...and I've yet to find out.
I only understand Him is the greatest and will love me unconditionally.
Have been running up and about today. Sorted my pay invoice with the boss and I can't wait for the blings blings into my account.Went back home after that and finally, my assignments are reaching till the end of the road. 2 more to go for this semester before I call it quits for this degree programme.
Rang Hung yesterday and hope he can give me more jobs over the coming holiday.I am considering to continue my nursing job too. The other reason why I want to work so hard is because my travel bug is biting on me. My next destination is Sydney and indeed, I can't wait to sit on one of those planes again!With who? God knows.
Went out with Zhen later this evening to a Christian Summit concert and that was excellent.Met Chrissy and her b.f after that at a Bubble teahouse in Northbridge. Weather has been getting more and more chilly and I've swopped to my duck feathered blanket now.Ahhh* It is so hard to get out of the bed every morning which i prefer to get snuggled under the blanket though ;p
*ponder* Sometimes, I wonder what is exactly going through a man's brain. Every now and then, I got to know some new guys who treated me nicely and yet the following day, they will just "disappeared" without any reason.For instance, J was one of the sweetest guy I've ever met.He is probably the first guy to ask my permission to kiss me and never did I hear from him again after that. Maybe he has found someone whom he likes or he's good in his fling-ing. The point I'm trying to get across is that my first intention of getting to know a guy is to be his friend first. However, along the way of getting- to -know process always divert to something else. This happens countless of times. Or perhaps, is there something wrong in myself? keep attracting these sorts of men who can drive me emotionally disturbed.
Will such guys please leave me alone?
For a moment I thought he would be a great pal to watch a Sarah Brightman concert, or to attend a party for fundraising for cancer kids, or go to a museum visit together or even have a good chat over a beer session.
I'm sure these things happened for a reason...and I've yet to find out.
I only understand Him is the greatest and will love me unconditionally.
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
PAY
My boss asked me to speak to his wife in-charge of my pay invoice personally. In fact, tax invoice number 6 has not been paid into my account almost for a month and yet she claimed she did. I wonder did she take into that account seriously or not. I've printed out my bank statement and ready to prove to her that she's wrong. And also, I've not been paid as well for other job.
duh* Clinic is starting too slowly for me.On the other hand, the other boss seems to keep telling me patients come back because i've not taken a corn off totally or callous off or whatever. Bah* Guess this is what will happen for a new graduate like me being an inexperienced green horn in foot industry.
I need more jobs! More money to go travelling and I reckon my next destination would be sydney. However, I've already forsee more bills is coming up - professional indemnity and car registration. arrghh*
My boss asked me to speak to his wife in-charge of my pay invoice personally. In fact, tax invoice number 6 has not been paid into my account almost for a month and yet she claimed she did. I wonder did she take into that account seriously or not. I've printed out my bank statement and ready to prove to her that she's wrong. And also, I've not been paid as well for other job.
duh* Clinic is starting too slowly for me.On the other hand, the other boss seems to keep telling me patients come back because i've not taken a corn off totally or callous off or whatever. Bah* Guess this is what will happen for a new graduate like me being an inexperienced green horn in foot industry.
I need more jobs! More money to go travelling and I reckon my next destination would be sydney. However, I've already forsee more bills is coming up - professional indemnity and car registration. arrghh*
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Hurry up weekends!
The thought of J is still flashing on and off my mind. Perhaps, it has been a long time that someone who is so gentle with me and yet, just another sad ending story.
Doing my second assignment now.....Gosh* I wish I can stop typing for a sec.Doing palliative care assignments are never fun.I can't wait for weekends to come. Watching a concert with Zhen and Chrissy on Saturday. And not sure what Anna is up to over the weekends but I guess there will be a plan to meet up the dudes from Canada.Feeling so tired....was chatting with my dentist g.f in Mt Isa as usual. And Martin from Israel, he is one great awesome friend that I ever had. Always ready to lend one of his listening ears.In fact, he was asking me how to advice his only daughter about boy-girl relationship and in relation to intimacy matters. Well, I'm sure dad would be panicking when his little girl starts to grow up ..heh.
Otherwise, still having tough luck with cars..Haven't found anything I like yet but I'm taking my own time.
The thought of J is still flashing on and off my mind. Perhaps, it has been a long time that someone who is so gentle with me and yet, just another sad ending story.
Doing my second assignment now.....Gosh* I wish I can stop typing for a sec.Doing palliative care assignments are never fun.I can't wait for weekends to come. Watching a concert with Zhen and Chrissy on Saturday. And not sure what Anna is up to over the weekends but I guess there will be a plan to meet up the dudes from Canada.Feeling so tired....was chatting with my dentist g.f in Mt Isa as usual. And Martin from Israel, he is one great awesome friend that I ever had. Always ready to lend one of his listening ears.In fact, he was asking me how to advice his only daughter about boy-girl relationship and in relation to intimacy matters. Well, I'm sure dad would be panicking when his little girl starts to grow up ..heh.
Otherwise, still having tough luck with cars..Haven't found anything I like yet but I'm taking my own time.
Sunday, May 09, 2004
Reassurances
I plucked up the courage to call J and he sounded uninterested or tired. Of course it was disappointing.However, I cannot assume anything from here, like what KH has said. I've showed my sincerity and the next step is his. Moving on moi!
I had a great time @Metro yesterday with a huge bunch of people from Vickery house-university hostel. Was out with Shougi, Shan , Raj and myself having dinner at Kim chee house. The crowd slowly picked up at around 12yish. Oh yeah, it was hot dancing with some guys out there *lol* anyway, I had a great time and Shougi was nice to buy me most of the drinks for that night.Almost suffered from hangover this morning.
It was mom's b'day yesterday and I'm gald she has received my present.heehee. and also dad asked me to advertise my car from now onwards! Woohoo!!
Gotta type my assignment now, plus having menses blue.
I plucked up the courage to call J and he sounded uninterested or tired. Of course it was disappointing.However, I cannot assume anything from here, like what KH has said. I've showed my sincerity and the next step is his. Moving on moi!
I had a great time @Metro yesterday with a huge bunch of people from Vickery house-university hostel. Was out with Shougi, Shan , Raj and myself having dinner at Kim chee house. The crowd slowly picked up at around 12yish. Oh yeah, it was hot dancing with some guys out there *lol* anyway, I had a great time and Shougi was nice to buy me most of the drinks for that night.Almost suffered from hangover this morning.
It was mom's b'day yesterday and I'm gald she has received my present.heehee. and also dad asked me to advertise my car from now onwards! Woohoo!!
Gotta type my assignment now, plus having menses blue.
Friday, May 07, 2004
Bursting my heart out
This is how I describe the moment I'm feeling right now. Had a bad day probably: forgot to bring a towel when I went for a swim.Don't know why I ain't got a good feeling today.Feel utterly bad.
Dad didn't get back to me about the car. Firstly, I showed him a mirage and he rejected it because there are a couple of accidents before that. The price was reasonable though. Next, showed him an Echo.This time he claimed he doesn't like the colour.It is a white car and then he commented about the pricing. The car costs about 8k+.I don't like him to give me any false hopes. He sounded serious to have my car changed since March and finally, he said he'll have it changed in June. It is really hard to believe his words. And he added on saying he needs to discuss with mom about it blah blah.
I know I should be contented with what I have. What makes me so vexed is when someone gives me a green light to do something that doesn't seem to happen at all.
In fact, I felt that I'm wasting my time and effort.
Why do I have to listen to him ALL the time - from choosing boyfriends to cars and life.
And even car colours need to be approved by him. I told him before, if you think you can't do anything, then don't say anything to me.
On the lighter note, can't help being bored shitless at home.Went to watch starsky and hutch.Not too bad with lotsa couples around while I got the whole row by myself.
This is not pathetic. I got my own life to lead and I know I'll get over it.
R called up last minute to cancel our teh tarik session coz she watching movie with her partner..*sign* no teh tarik tonight then :O(
This is how I describe the moment I'm feeling right now. Had a bad day probably: forgot to bring a towel when I went for a swim.Don't know why I ain't got a good feeling today.Feel utterly bad.
Dad didn't get back to me about the car. Firstly, I showed him a mirage and he rejected it because there are a couple of accidents before that. The price was reasonable though. Next, showed him an Echo.This time he claimed he doesn't like the colour.It is a white car and then he commented about the pricing. The car costs about 8k+.I don't like him to give me any false hopes. He sounded serious to have my car changed since March and finally, he said he'll have it changed in June. It is really hard to believe his words. And he added on saying he needs to discuss with mom about it blah blah.
I know I should be contented with what I have. What makes me so vexed is when someone gives me a green light to do something that doesn't seem to happen at all.
In fact, I felt that I'm wasting my time and effort.
Why do I have to listen to him ALL the time - from choosing boyfriends to cars and life.
And even car colours need to be approved by him. I told him before, if you think you can't do anything, then don't say anything to me.
On the lighter note, can't help being bored shitless at home.Went to watch starsky and hutch.Not too bad with lotsa couples around while I got the whole row by myself.
This is not pathetic. I got my own life to lead and I know I'll get over it.
R called up last minute to cancel our teh tarik session coz she watching movie with her partner..*sign* no teh tarik tonight then :O(
HOPE
i always "hope" the best for any of my friends -in regardless I've known you for a long or short period of time. I think I 'over-cared' too much at times? Is this normal in the first place? I know I'm currently feeling a little guilty because i saw my g.f's dude is hanging around with a couple of girls and this also verifies of what I've seen with another of his pal. From here, I just 'hope' again the best will come out of it.
Today is my first time offering for free footcare services down at St Pat's community services. Woke up feeling with full of enthusiatics and even though the idea of not getting paid doesn't seem to worry me. In fact, I was working flat out seeing as many people as I can. Sister Alma is nice and guides me along if I do need any help.So does Stella too. Booked an appointment to see a Chiropractor for my sore back. Can't wait for that to happen.
Otherwise, things are going really slow in the clinic.Came back from work and slept through for an hour. Cooked tuna pasta for dinner before heading to uni to print out my assignments. 2 more assignments next week. I'm still hanging there...by next month, I'll be done with my 2nd degree.Whoppie!
i always "hope" the best for any of my friends -in regardless I've known you for a long or short period of time. I think I 'over-cared' too much at times? Is this normal in the first place? I know I'm currently feeling a little guilty because i saw my g.f's dude is hanging around with a couple of girls and this also verifies of what I've seen with another of his pal. From here, I just 'hope' again the best will come out of it.
Today is my first time offering for free footcare services down at St Pat's community services. Woke up feeling with full of enthusiatics and even though the idea of not getting paid doesn't seem to worry me. In fact, I was working flat out seeing as many people as I can. Sister Alma is nice and guides me along if I do need any help.So does Stella too. Booked an appointment to see a Chiropractor for my sore back. Can't wait for that to happen.
Otherwise, things are going really slow in the clinic.Came back from work and slept through for an hour. Cooked tuna pasta for dinner before heading to uni to print out my assignments. 2 more assignments next week. I'm still hanging there...by next month, I'll be done with my 2nd degree.Whoppie!
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